Proud Momma Bear Moment
Working through trauma means a lot of ups and downs. It doesn’t mean everything is bad all the time, it doesn’t mean that everything is good all the time. It doesn’t necessarily mean that you are unhappy in this moment, however learning about emotions and where they belong can be a daunting task. I do not pretend to know what I am doing, but I am happy to share the successes, the failures, the setbacks, the steps forward and everything in between.
9 years ago today, I became a MiMi. Grandbaby 1 definitely wanted to make a dramatic entry into the world and so they did. Kiddo 2 was rushed into the OR for an emergency c-section. Baby decided to make their entrance at 33 weeks. Kiddo 2 has type 1 diabetes. They were diagnosed at age 9 and has had numerous health issues related to diabetes as well as some other things. The trauma and pain they experienced immediately was heartbreaking. Even more difficult was that kiddo 2 didn’t even get to see grandbaby 1 (outside of pics) until day 2 or 3.
I would visit the NICU every evening to feed grandbaby 1 their last bottle of the day and would rock in the chair and sing to them. After 5 long weeks, grandbaby 1 was ready to come home. My sweet kiddo struggled with severe postpartum depression. Our immediate family jumped in and we all pitched in to help during this time. Thankfully, kiddo 2 was able to get help and was soon on their way to new motherhood.
I am so very proud of kiddo 2 and their partner for the adults parents they have become. They have truly broken the cycle of religious, physical, and S.A. that was a part of my life. They are raising children in a loving, caring, accepting environment. My grandbabies are growing up with self-esteem, self-assurance, freedom to be who they are without judgment. They are so loved and I couldn’t be prouder of my kiddos.
Happy birthday sweet grandbaby 1. I can’t wait to go to the LegoCon with you.
I will be spending the next few blogs bragging about my kiddos. Without them, I would not be the person I am becoming. They are my heroes and I would like to share some stories about each of them.
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